In my years, few but enriched, I have lived a life which demonstrates that difference is not a barrier to excellence.
I have this strange obsession with leaving a legacy. I suppose my yearning for success has always meant more than just “me”. Is this horrifically self-centered and does is reek of narcissism? Possibly. Does it invoke a sense of self-worth and drive me towards each mini and mega goal in my life? Absolutely.
Recently I have been thinking a lot about the ruthless decade that is my "twenties". Once immersed in the simulation of social media we see people getting opportunities left, right and centre and each time that voice in your head screams "Must be nice", "When is it my turn" - and just like that, jealousy will have you gossiping about who you should be learning from.
Sometimes we are just not ready yet! Our lives have to be completely shaken up, changed and rearranged to relocate us to the place we’re meant to be. This is such an important time in our lives - the formative years on the cusp of excellence. You cannot grow from ruined soil, so get cleaning.
Has 2019 been living up to your expectations?
This year I was ready for smooth sailing and a 2019 full of wins. So far I have had nothing but a bumpy ride towards a jagged edge. I really learned the hard way that if you don’t take time for your wellness, you will be forced to take time for your illness. Choose reflection over recovery every time, please.
Earlier this year I began “cleaning” my life through seeking counseling and it has been a ray of sunshine amongst a myriad of clouds. Some of you may need to let the pride go, leap out of your comfort zone and admit you need some support. Now, in regards to life, I want to be everything and nothing, all at once. I want the liberty to be everything, I also want the tranquility of less. It is safe to say I don’t know what I want. Do you?
Maybe you are not happy with life because you do not know what you want from it.
Who am I?
What do I want?
What do I need?
Knowing the answers to those three seemingly simple questions will accelerate your journey of self-discovery.
I always say it, but my life is art and I will design it to the best of my ability. Sometimes the paint spills, sometimes the brush curves, sometimes I draw over the lines - but for every mistake, there is a win.
I hope you experience your win very soon.
With love and light, I wish you all the best.